The Dawn The Suicidal sun rises again radiating his life to the terrain. The sun was there upon the curve of waters before I caught sleight of his light. My heart rocks as the breaking colours pass currents in brooks of my veins. Wonder I again of the quiet vastness of the obscure farther horizons where the world crouched rolled into itself. The deep blue waters crinkle and sparkle --A sea of disturbance unfathomable. The scene that portrays the rays the sand water wind and skies take birth by every sun bring a fresh strangeness in me I'm newborn. This continuum aligns the thoughts, the glories of elements that fuse. Vibrations of volatile Earth penetrate my soul, levitate my Being. I'm sublimated in the space --the space to which I never belonged. --A revelation of an immense Nothingness. Then I am lost in the eternal waves of Time that dawns and dawns.
Bijja Rathnashikamani's Questions:
I tried to present in this poem what Jiddu Krishnamoorthy said about Birth & Death.
Am I successful?
Thru the lines 'glories of elements that fuse'
and 'the space to which I never belonged'
I tried to express some scientific ideas.
Have I conveyed them?
Belonging My Thought belonged to a world where my homesick mind healed quizzical heartbeats answered. Seasoned with trite thoughts tight arguments and vexing axioms I writhed unconvinced in mirth that questioned my birth on this Earth. Against all existence, fecundated Non-being My soul hovered over realms of fetal things. The seeming regression enshrouded my Dead-living, splitting and denuding Everything from envelopes of Nothing. This evergrowing wisdom shrunk and shrunk into dotty sphere, orbited self-centered. >From Infinite-Zero the Light broke (indefinite to my expanding senses) mirrored mirages of images, my own visages. Duplicating Entities ringed, winged volatile-tongued professed Non-entity. In depths estranged Life fled in procreative currents and sounded rotundity. Borne of dust, the stars dense and ablaze convolved into Black-holes. Luminophagous. My Elemental specks drawn in Eternal Pull and disillusioned thus in Continuum I prolonged in dark Cosmic shifts Where Nothing Belonged.
Bijja Rathnashikamani's Questions:
Here I am trying to say that there is actually nothing in the Heart of Matter as we can see in the atomic structure
of the Elements.When you go on dividing the subatomic particles we can reach to Nothing finally. Similarly there is Life in Death and vice versa, I suppose according to philosophers. The word "luminophagous" probably is my own coinage for light-eating Black-holes. How far I could express my thinking?
The Afterthought At eventide an ethereal heaven eventuates at sealine. Dusk-dusted breeze wafts subtle messages slow-whispers therapeutic airs. Vast dispersing vacuuity assuages my dispirited dying soul. Needles nascent from wavering veils of weaving dark nimbly numbs my objective eye. About the opacity of clustered clouds speckle only the sporadic stars. Slight light flings a flimsy luminescence. Beat of musical waters splutters a thumping andante. Murmurs no creature from slumberous stupefaction, zephyr-whistle or tidal tussle. A casuarina poses naked, reclusive in silence. Passing muses pause... A sudden brightening lightning strikes a momentous panoramic flash. Late thunder dominates neaptide rhythms. Heart shakes with ebb and dub Confides. Have I undergone this Being? An enlightened mood broods The universe ever expands with Life beyond Death. Far flung stars implode the heart of Matter. But, the Genesis within you explodes your chemical brains. And mind responds battling for the Becoming Even the lifelong learning wouldn't have given you the joy of this loneliness. Even the penance unto death wouldn't have dealt you the Light of this beatific glimpse.
Bijja Rathnashikamani's Questions:
Here I tried to reconciliate my failing soul
from the glimpse of Light, a heavenly wisdom
showered upon my tired intellect.
Am I clear in this expression?